These days I am so busy with the funeral...Can't believe that she is really gone...
My dear got himself a new DSLR... Well I will let him update on his baby himself...
~esther~
Friday, 27 February 2009
Honey's New Baby...
These days I am so busy with the funeral...Can't believe that she is really gone...
My dear got himself a new DSLR... Well I will let him update on his baby himself...
~esther~
Thursday, 26 February 2009
25.02.2009
After months long of battle with last stage of colon cancer, she finally drew her last breathe on 25/02/2009 @ 12.35 pm. As I stood there and see her 'dosing off', tears just rolled down my cheeks. Despite the chantings that were going on, my dear never failed to continue to pray in tongues. When we were called to her bed side to hold her hand, no words could be formed as I try to hold back my tears. Her best friend continuely persuaded us to tell her that she is going to see Buddha and all is going to be well but in my heart, I was screaming at the obnoxious lady, "Hey! I do not want her to go to hell!". Like usual, my dear kept his composure, he told her, "You don't worry about us, we are going to be fine. And we are here to be with you." Nothing was utter by her, but she was clinging on to her life. When the clock strucked 12.25 pm, the nurse could not feel her pulse anymore. The machine that was used to check her pulse has also stop responding. The chantings grew louder while me,dear and Aunty Molly, stood aside; tears were rolling down uncontrolably. Yee Yee is gone. No more good meals with her, no more her welcoming me or dear back when we go over to her house, no more her calling me by my chinese name...
As I rewind back to the recent weeks, many events have taken place. Firstly, it is the persecution she faced that she has to keep her good news of being a Christian to herself. The day the family fought, I was told about the event and I rushed to the hospital with dear. I held her hand and told her, "Yee Yee, you don't worry. I love and treat you like my own family. They will be fine. Don't aggravate your sickness. After you are discharged from the hospital, we shall go for your favourite meal." She replied in cantonese, "Good. They do not what is going on but I have accepted Christ. (however, the part of her salvation, she said it really softly, practically inaudible). Huey Shuen, you are very good and the only one here now that understands me. Yee Yee loves you very much." At that moment, she was still very conscious and alert. However, me and dear did not dare to say much about her salvation as we do not want to worsen the fight.
Saturday(21/02/2009) came by, after my class, I had this urge that me and dear have to go to the hospital. After much persuasion, dear gave in and we made our way there. As usual, I was pulled aside to listen to the family squabbles. That night, there was a sudden thunderstorm and dear came out of her room to call us back as Yee Yee has woke up. When I saw her, she was complaining about the dreadful pain. The pain was not eliminated by a previous dosage of pain killer. For the first time, she requested for more and a larger dosage of painkiller. We were relunctant to give her an extra dosage, but she held my hand and said, "NO. I need it now. Give it to me!" After discussion, I told the family that we should respect her wishes. Despite the pain, she was able to nag us for not listening to her. And we even teased her back admitted that all of us are being naughty. The nurse came and gave her the injection. Minutes later, she lost conscious and her eyes were rolling upwards. We yelled at her but there was no reply. She was later given oxygen. She specifically called for me to go to her bedside. I can see in her eyes that she wanted to speak but she has no strength to do it. I held on to her and said that once she is fine, we will go for abalone and shark fin soup. She laughed. And I told her, " Yee Yee, you must live a long life to see Joseph & me get married and have kids." She smiled and there was a glow on her face. Soon, the medicine kicked in and she slowly fell asleep.
That night, I was aware that death is coming to get her. But selfishly, I did not want her to leave though I know she will going to a place fear from pain and suffering. Since that night, she has nightmares regarding dead people and was sleepless. Slowly, she grew weaker in matter of days but when she sees me, she will always ask whether I am cold or have I eaten or "eh!You finished work d?". Her usual question would be "Huey Shuen, what time is it?" And then, she would tell me what she wants whether it be that she wants to sleep, drink or take her medicine.
Tuesday, I went to be with her in the afternoon while the rest of the family prepare the house for the funeral. She barely talked and her body was really bloated. As usual, she will call me and tell me what she needs. When I left, she has slept. That was the last moment I had alone with her. In the evening, I called Aunty Molly and she assured me that Yee Yee admitted she accepted Christ. That was a sign of relief.
Yesterday morning, I received a call at 10.30 am saying that she is not doing fine and the doctors have stamped the expiry date on her. I prayed and began to clear my work so that I could make my way there. At 11.30 am, another call came and said she is very critical, please come ASAP.
After she passed away, I was left in her house with the maids and those people who were setting up the tents. As the memories of her began to flood my mind, I cried. I can see her in her favourite chair always sleeping but she would be alert when I come back with ot without dear. The times I used to go out for lunch with her. The CNY reunions and the recent one we spent with her. Those nights including New Year's Eve that me and dear slept in the hospital with her.
When I am writing this post, tears are welling up. I shall write no more. One thing for sure, I am going to miss her.
~Esther~
As I rewind back to the recent weeks, many events have taken place. Firstly, it is the persecution she faced that she has to keep her good news of being a Christian to herself. The day the family fought, I was told about the event and I rushed to the hospital with dear. I held her hand and told her, "Yee Yee, you don't worry. I love and treat you like my own family. They will be fine. Don't aggravate your sickness. After you are discharged from the hospital, we shall go for your favourite meal." She replied in cantonese, "Good. They do not what is going on but I have accepted Christ. (however, the part of her salvation, she said it really softly, practically inaudible). Huey Shuen, you are very good and the only one here now that understands me. Yee Yee loves you very much." At that moment, she was still very conscious and alert. However, me and dear did not dare to say much about her salvation as we do not want to worsen the fight.
Saturday(21/02/2009) came by, after my class, I had this urge that me and dear have to go to the hospital. After much persuasion, dear gave in and we made our way there. As usual, I was pulled aside to listen to the family squabbles. That night, there was a sudden thunderstorm and dear came out of her room to call us back as Yee Yee has woke up. When I saw her, she was complaining about the dreadful pain. The pain was not eliminated by a previous dosage of pain killer. For the first time, she requested for more and a larger dosage of painkiller. We were relunctant to give her an extra dosage, but she held my hand and said, "NO. I need it now. Give it to me!" After discussion, I told the family that we should respect her wishes. Despite the pain, she was able to nag us for not listening to her. And we even teased her back admitted that all of us are being naughty. The nurse came and gave her the injection. Minutes later, she lost conscious and her eyes were rolling upwards. We yelled at her but there was no reply. She was later given oxygen. She specifically called for me to go to her bedside. I can see in her eyes that she wanted to speak but she has no strength to do it. I held on to her and said that once she is fine, we will go for abalone and shark fin soup. She laughed. And I told her, " Yee Yee, you must live a long life to see Joseph & me get married and have kids." She smiled and there was a glow on her face. Soon, the medicine kicked in and she slowly fell asleep.
That night, I was aware that death is coming to get her. But selfishly, I did not want her to leave though I know she will going to a place fear from pain and suffering. Since that night, she has nightmares regarding dead people and was sleepless. Slowly, she grew weaker in matter of days but when she sees me, she will always ask whether I am cold or have I eaten or "eh!You finished work d?". Her usual question would be "Huey Shuen, what time is it?" And then, she would tell me what she wants whether it be that she wants to sleep, drink or take her medicine.
Tuesday, I went to be with her in the afternoon while the rest of the family prepare the house for the funeral. She barely talked and her body was really bloated. As usual, she will call me and tell me what she needs. When I left, she has slept. That was the last moment I had alone with her. In the evening, I called Aunty Molly and she assured me that Yee Yee admitted she accepted Christ. That was a sign of relief.
Yesterday morning, I received a call at 10.30 am saying that she is not doing fine and the doctors have stamped the expiry date on her. I prayed and began to clear my work so that I could make my way there. At 11.30 am, another call came and said she is very critical, please come ASAP.
After she passed away, I was left in her house with the maids and those people who were setting up the tents. As the memories of her began to flood my mind, I cried. I can see her in her favourite chair always sleeping but she would be alert when I come back with ot without dear. The times I used to go out for lunch with her. The CNY reunions and the recent one we spent with her. Those nights including New Year's Eve that me and dear slept in the hospital with her.
When I am writing this post, tears are welling up. I shall write no more. One thing for sure, I am going to miss her.
~Esther~
Tuesday, 24 February 2009
Little GIANTS
Was just thinking some old movies and this pass my mind. One of my most enjoyed movies when i was young. If you can find the download, worth your time.*Joe*
MPH book voucher
Dear received her book voucher from MPH book store not long ago. I'm not a big fans on books but Dear is. The voucher was like RM100++. ( O.O ). So yesterday we went to scout for a couple of law reference books. But it was too expensive. So we decided that each of us pick something to fill up the voucher. Dear got books to read. As for me, what book is there for me to read le !?. Went to see magazines. Well, most of it not interesting at all and too much *female* content on computer & car magazines!. Although there are some that i wanted to buy, but how?. Almost NUDE women staring at you. Walaoeh. Really piang ah. But I did get a few. Like 4 magazines without *nude* women wan. If we were to use cash, you'll see the kiam siap side of us. But with the voucher, super boros. See what, take what.
Go purchase books from MPH. As time to time, you'll get book vouchers from them according to their terms and conditions of course.
*Joe*
Go purchase books from MPH. As time to time, you'll get book vouchers from them according to their terms and conditions of course.
*Joe*
Monday, 23 February 2009
Lil makan with Joel boy
Sometimes during each month, we will take this little fat boy out for a makan. Could be anything, but Dear & Me prefer *Jiew Char*. There is nothing special about *JChar* but we love it. We'll normally order tau fu (mainly japanese ones), sweet & sour fish, egg with prawns & a hot tasty soupy. BTW, Joel can eat a horse load of food down his stomach. Almost everyday, he'll be asking for supper!!!. Really tau pui tu. And his inspiration, wanna be like KO KO Joseph Lau. *Oh my* ?!.
*Joe*
Reaction test
Browsed Ben Tan's blog. came pass this little *torture the lamb* test. So far this is my best. of maybe 50 times, only a handful *NOT* sluggish snail. Hehex... Pop by Ben's blog and check it out. BTW, I *tut* always i missed a sheep.*Joe*
Our favorite burgerrrrrr stall.
Dear and me has actually found our favorite burger stall of all time. It's situated opposite of Prima Tanjung at the side of the road. Nothing special to make it taste that good but we just enjoy it. Not advisable to eat it daily, but once in a blue moon, i'll take my bear bear for a treat.
*Joe*
Streamyx sucks.
Most of us, or if not all of us uses Streamyx internet service. But, as i've realised, the speed is getting slower day by day which makes things hard especially us that regularly download files from the internet. Here is a picture of how slow it is over at my housing area. My dad has launched complaints upon complaints but nothing has been done. Really eat shit (o.O)... Moreover, I'm paying monthly for 1MB. On average, i get less than 1kbps for each download using a download accelerator. Walaoeh...
Whoeve is reading this, if there is a suggestion in speeding the internet speed, or just plain kicking Telekom, let me know.
Test your internet speed at ( www.speedtest.net ).
*Joe*
Tuesday, 17 February 2009
...
It has been a long time since I have blog and many things have happened. My finals will be only 2++ months away and college has announced their grueling long hours of revision schedule. Due to the revision, I won't be able to attend IGNITE, Bible Study and sometimes even Sunday Service! And the worse part is the lecturer even made this statement, "choose to have a life or have part 1 next year. Make your choice now!". It is without doubt that ATC has been a great college, the lecturers will never fail to torture us with extra classes whether it to be in the evenings or Sundays, I do not see any light in their lives. Their world evolves around lectures, students and reading up of recent developments in law... they do not seem to have a family life also because some are divorced; single and the married lecturer carries this troubled look on her face when you see her up closed. I do not want to end up like them. They have the career, the knowledge, the wealth but their lives are empty, without God.
Law exams are far different from the past whereby more is required of you. The number of cases you have to read and grasp at the back of your palm, it is just HORRIBLE! In the nights when I am alone and my mind starts to wonder, I will questioned myself on why I am seeking such unnecessary torture? It is not like I can't quit this, I can always help my dad run his business since I know most of the things in the office. The silly me even wished that money would just fall from the sky. Life is just not so simple like I used to think. When I see Joel worrying about his homework or him running about watching his cartoons with not much worries, I dream to be him. So careless, so happy and life is still so far ahead of him whereby everything he needs are laid out for him.
After saying all that, every cloud does have a silver lining. At the end of my classes, I will always see my dear waiting for me downstairs in the car. He will never fail in listening to my grunts and complaints. In classes, he will drop me text messages telling me to hang on and no matter whats he supports and loves me. He is also the one that chauffeurs me to and fro unfailingly. Besides that, he will make sure that I am well fed before I go for my classes. When there are breaks of 30 minutes, he will be at the mamak stall waiting for me. During my lunch breaks, he will faithfully take me out for lunch or a joyride Lastly, he even promised me that I can get my dream bag from KL when we attend his cousin's wedding. With the condition that I save and do my best for my exams.
He is indeed my silver lining, my companion, my comfort and pillar. He is the one that showers me with prayers, love, care and all that I need. Well, he is not able to replace God but yet, he is my earthly angel.
So, Dear, thank you for everything & I love you!
Law exams are far different from the past whereby more is required of you. The number of cases you have to read and grasp at the back of your palm, it is just HORRIBLE! In the nights when I am alone and my mind starts to wonder, I will questioned myself on why I am seeking such unnecessary torture? It is not like I can't quit this, I can always help my dad run his business since I know most of the things in the office. The silly me even wished that money would just fall from the sky. Life is just not so simple like I used to think. When I see Joel worrying about his homework or him running about watching his cartoons with not much worries, I dream to be him. So careless, so happy and life is still so far ahead of him whereby everything he needs are laid out for him.
After saying all that, every cloud does have a silver lining. At the end of my classes, I will always see my dear waiting for me downstairs in the car. He will never fail in listening to my grunts and complaints. In classes, he will drop me text messages telling me to hang on and no matter whats he supports and loves me. He is also the one that chauffeurs me to and fro unfailingly. Besides that, he will make sure that I am well fed before I go for my classes. When there are breaks of 30 minutes, he will be at the mamak stall waiting for me. During my lunch breaks, he will faithfully take me out for lunch or a joyride Lastly, he even promised me that I can get my dream bag from KL when we attend his cousin's wedding. With the condition that I save and do my best for my exams.
He is indeed my silver lining, my companion, my comfort and pillar. He is the one that showers me with prayers, love, care and all that I need. Well, he is not able to replace God but yet, he is my earthly angel.
So, Dear, thank you for everything & I love you!
Wednesday, 4 February 2009
Flowers...
Closing to Valentines Day '09. Some digital flowers for my lovely Darling. Love ya!!!
Photos taken myself of course.
*Joe*
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